Lost In The Dark
Part 8 : The Overwhelming City
The noise of vehicles stuck in traffic, horns honking, people rushing around. The city brightens the night sky. Time ticks as you walk passed pedestrians ignoring your presence. People go about their day, you bump into others, glares in their eyes as you realize that you can't speak. Neon lights shine through the night, you read a sign that says, "wrong way." Crossing the street to find the right direction to where you need to be, you run into a dead end, forced to go back into the crowded pedestrian walkways. Hesitation fills you as you stare at the impatient pedestrians, pushing, shoving and showing no respect for others. You look in horror as you try to find another path. Your heart races, sweat runs down your cheek as you push through the busy crowd. Stumbling left and right, constantly shoved around like you are just in their way, and are meaningless to them. You run into a sign that says, "This way" instead of taking the path, you turn down another street, this time you see a walkway empty of others, it feels safer to you. Walking further, alone down the walkway, you see no lights, no sign of other people, just you, stuck in an unknown city around people who you are not comfortable with. You reach another busy street. As you walk alone for hours down the lonely sidewalk, cars rushing passed you down the street, you begin to feel angry, upset, and don't know why you spend time wandering around by yourself? The dark sky never sees twilight, every step is further in isolation and bleakness. No sound resonates with your own feelings. Tears from the long journey through chaos, no more guiding spirits, or companionship, just alone watching others pass you by in the city.
You enter an abandoned building, people sit at different corners, some hugging their legs, knees bent to their chins, others saying, "It is cold in here? Why is it so cold in here?" You look around, and say to yourself, "I only feel the heat from heater inside." Every step you take, crumbles the dead leaves scattered throughout the floor. The broken glass from the windows lie about the leaves, and trails of blood can be seen across the leaves, leading to barefoot squatters. you look outside the window, "Nothing but pure darkness? I thought I was in a brightly lit up city with crowds of people, now I seem to be staring at emptiness, a void of nothingness. Like this building is the only thing left in existence." You turn around and head back to the weird people wandering inside of the lobby. Cries heard from a woman banging on the door, shaking the knob, throwing a chair at it. The door cracked as a shadow figure pokes its head through from the corner of the room, the figure stands up, entered the more lit area of the room, and began to drag the woman away into the dark side of the room. You watch as they vanish, screams echo as she says, "No, stop it! Please, don't take my clothes off me! I don't want to!" You approach where the figure dragged the woman, and stare at the woman. You stare in confusion as it appears that her clothes are still on, and she has not been harmed, nor is there any sign of where the dark figure disappeared. The lady gets up, walked back to the door, and repeatedly tries to open the door. The room turns completely dark, you wander around to find a safe place to sit down. A streak of bright light flies past you, a whisper in your ear, "This is where real pain is at, pain that only you understand." The noises disappear as the room brightens up into a desert wasteland, filled with different abandoned homes, crumbling and falling apart. You think to yourself, "My life is too strange. I just move from one chaotic environment to the next. I don't understand anything. I don't know what to do to figure this out. Am I supposed to be doing something, looking for something, being something? I am so confused as to what is going on with everything in my life. I just keep going on, I don't know why I keep pushing forward. You would think that I should have found my way, but I have not. I don't know, I don't know." You decide to lie down and rest for the next few days.
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